Oops, I did it again

I was doing so well, blogging at least once if not twice a month.  I will do my best to catch up these past few months as briefly as possible.  In my last post, I mentioned some exciting ideas I was attempting to accomplish for PSP.  These things did not happen.  My friend I wrote about before, that was going to get married and was going to give me the opportunity to visit Portland, ended up postponing her wedding.  This change made it not responsibly possible for me to make a trip up north at this time.  I have not had opportunity to be in my favorite place since January and it honestly makes my heart ache.

Before this trip was cancelled, I had sent emails to a handful of people that have been prominent influences in PSP these past few years.  I immediately received enthusiastic response back from one of the founders and a mentor of mine.  I was immensely encouraged to continue on this path.  I also, received word back from my co-director, liking the idea of doing something and advice on different ways this can be accomplished.  I then, after much time had past, got a message from one of the other founders and a person I too look up to.  Her words were much more discouraging to me.  It set me back a bit from moving forward.  And then, shortly after was when I got word of the wedding being called off.

Right now, I am in a really good place.  Deep down I know it is possible that it is not God's will for PSP to be brought back.  I feel called to move back to Portland after my time in Humboldt comes to a close.  I feel renewed in my calling to serve.  My time will be spent in more intentional service when I am there.  Volunteering with both Northwest Children's Outreach (a clothing donation service for needy youth) as God calls us to clothe the needy and the Backpack Food Program (a food donation service for families in need) as God calls us to feed the poor.

This past July, I got to return to some of my roots, serving as cabin staff at Daybreak camp.  I had not been there in 5 years, since I began working with PSP.  While there, I felt like I was exactly where I needed to be in that exact moment.  Never before have I felt this way before.  I was supported, encouraged, and most importantly loved.  My dream is to bring the PUMPworks Summer Program back, in some form.  It has also been my dream to work with Daybreak camp, since my youth.  While spending time there recently, I got to know many of the staff members very well.  My hope for next summer is to get a job there, as I now have learned what it takes to work there.

I feel like my time there will help prepare me for future summers at PSP.  Already I have got many new ideas for the program from my time spent there at camp.  I imagine if I am granted the opportunity to work for daybreak, that I will get lots more.  I am excited for what is a head.  I have high hopes.  Till next time, keep praying.